Being madly in love sucks.
Especially when you are not sure if that love is waning.

The problem with me is that whenever I "fall out of love" with somebody, I start to resent them for some reason or another.

I don't want to resent Joe.

I did it to Josh, and I really feel guilty about disliking him as I do. It ruined everything between us. Yeah, he screwed me over by toying with me, but that doesn't mean that we shouldn't be friends after it all, right? I mean, we were friends before. It should be fine to just go back to the way it was before, and we try to make it work.

But we're both really awkward around each other, and it just doesn't work.

I don't want to complicate poor Joe's life any more than it is right now. FFFFHAHAHAHAHA AS IF I HAVE THAT KIND OF SIGNIFICANCE IN HIS LIFE. XD

But anyway, I'm going to do something very stupid today.

Like telling him how I feel.

How do I go about this? I never did this before. Bah. Bah bah bah.